Pernah tak u rase...at one point when you are searching for a cure to heal you soul, you suddenly found something undeniably precious in your life..? Something yang buat you rase alive again after a long and silent 'death'...Sesuatu yang buat you 'remembered' and 'rediscovered' your ownself that once lost without a trace...Something yang all by it trueself helped you to ease away all the agony and sorrow deep inside you..
You just cant help but to make a wish that you'll be able to keep it with you as long as you live and you are willing to do anything for it even if it means to give up half of our life..as long as you stil breathing..knowing that you can always have something to turn to for a shoulder to cry on...a heart that willing to listen when the whole world turned to darkness and against you...So much so until you dont want to lose it from your grip...
But...Subhanallah... Allah always knows better what's the best for us aite...? And there's always a conflict between 'doing the right thing' and 'do things right'...? Tak kira macam mana sekalipun kita lari, masa dan ketika itu tetap akan sampai...kita akan diminta melepaskan 'sesuatu' yang telah dipinjamkan kepada kita untuk suatu sebab yang hanya Dia mengerti...
But, mampukah aku nak menghadapi kebenaran itu untuk sekali lagi...??? Mampukah aku nak hadapi hakikat yang dia tidak akan sama seperti dulu...things have changed and more changes will be seen...and the fact is, I pray for this change to happen coz aku nak dia happy..but at the same time my fear of knowing the fact that I will lose it and hurt myself for another round cant be denied...Tell me my dear Lord...for Your greatest love and mercy...how can my little heart carry this task again....tell my how to complete it without losing my sanity...for Your greatness and kindness...help me my dear Lord coz you know me more than I ever knew myself...
